So…bit awkward. I have been somewhat ignoring this blog for sometime now, pretty much for over a year. Always awkward coming back to something you’ve neglected. Knowingly. For a YEAR. Well, I blame Bertrand for making me write on this again and I would point you to his wonderful magazine.
And just so you know, it’s not down to watching these over and over again.
So, run down of my last year. As you know I bought a house. Admittedly, this took up a lot of my time up until early 2011. We (the royal ‘we’, or rather, if I’m being truthful my Dad, who is a builder) took a run down man flat and turned it into a pretty, warm, relatively low impact-ish place. We installed new double-glazing where there was none before, got a wonderful recycled kitchen via the amazing Sean, used low V.O.C paints (I would not go back to the other stuff it stinks!) and filled it with furniture from charity/secondhand shops and stuff people didn’t want no more. Now I live with Vicky & Jon and the house is often filled with merriment, laughter and after some weekends a few too many wine bottles. Which we recycle.
In January I started a new job with Groundwork North East, an environmental charity which focuses on environmental improvements in deprived areas as a means to achieve other aims – i.e better health and wellbeing, etc. This has been a great year for me in terms of doing practical work which you can see the instant benefit of, and my practical project management skills. Also, I have learnt lots from my colleagues about nature, the great outdoors (such as how to identify trees in winter with nee leaves on), and how to do fun natural crafts like willow weaving, green woodwork and felting. Actually, I’ll post a pic of my Christmas wreaths, beautiful, even if I do say so myself!
I also this year have:
- Met some amazing people. I joined couchsurfing and visited Edinburgh, the Lake District, & Paris and had some interesting people stay with me. Perhaps I will write more about this later – but it basically defined my year. I needed some more adventurous friends and some more exciting things to do and couchsurfing delivered to me many friends who I just hadn’t met yet, including indirectly & unexpectedly introducing me to a person who has definitely shaped at least the latter half in my year in a wholly positive & super-brilliant way.
- Rediscovered my soul. I trained as a John Muir Leader and through that volunteered for a 5 days up on the Isle of Rona – a tiny wild space, beautiful in the extreme which just swept my soul clear and made me feel more alive than I had in a long, long time. I felt like I was finally myself after a couple of years of struggling with too many plates in the air and losing some people close to me and dear to my heart. I had the first ‘hippy’ mood (an overwhelming feeling of how lucky I am, and happy to have such a life, such friends, such family, such chances, etc) in at least a couple of years which I used to have all the time. Funny how sometimes you don’t realise that you have been struggling a bit until you feel better again and think ‘oh yeah, I used to feel like this all the time!’. Thank you Rona. And to Sam & Bruce (& the girls) for sharing it with me.
- Realigned my focus. Or at least I’m in the difficult process of trying to do this. I was going to say I’d rediscovered my love of politics, but I don’t think that’s correct as I don’t love it at all. Involvement in politics continuously puts you in conflict with others, as prejudices cannot be overturned unless one speaks out = conflict, injustices cannot be corrected if one accepts the status quo = conflict, and important issues cannot be brought to the fore unless you are willing to bang on about it until someone listens = annoying = conflict. I do struggle with this a lot. It’s emotionally exhausting trying to get to grips with issues and motivate/pass info round/debate with people and alienating people is a real concern. Will try and get my head around this at a later stage too. Anyway, I’ve regained my thirst for knowledge of how and why crap stuff is crap, and wanting to figure out how we might be able to stop it. But I don’t know what it is. Or who the ‘we’ is. Yet.
Anyway. I just wanted to say hi.
I promise I’ll keep in touch more often. *
Gemma x
*No, really – I will. Promise.








